"Jeans On"

WOO! 14 class periods of physics left! YES! Makes my day...

Anyway, it's time to update my schedule for y'all.

April
26th-baking stuff for ID bake sale (anyone wanna come help?)
28th-Speech Showcase @ 7/Japanese lessons @ 6:30 (the second one wins this conflict)
29th-Key Leader for Builder's Clubs (cannot go, though - must rest before SAT/APUSH)
30th-prom dress shopping w/ Ash and whoever else wants to come with me @ 1
29th-May 1st-studying, studying, studying!

May
2nd-violin lessons @ 7
4th-KC stuff (and a lot of it, too!)/APUSH final exam (hopefully my only exam if I skip physics and precal)
5th-some crapping English test the entire grade takes/Jap. lessons @ 6:30
6th-APUSH EXAM @ 8 A.M.
7th-SAT in the morning, possible prom planning/KC work later in the day
8th-Mother's Day/volunteering for 4 hours at resale shop
9th-lessons @ 7
11th-last day of driver's ed!
12th-Jap. lessons @ 6:30
14th-PROM!!!!!!!!!
15th-KC service project
16th-Lessons @ 7
18th-ASH TURNS 17!!!!
19th-LAST JAP. II CLASS! @ 6:30
20th-Veteran's Celebration @ 7/Key Leader (have to miss this one, too, since I'm the leader of the decorations committee for the veteran's thing)
21st and 22nd-studying if I have finals, shopping/partying if I get to skip them all
23rd-Lessons @ 7
25th-Beth's Birthday!!! :)
27th-LAST DAY OF SCHOOL! (Actually, I don't even have to show up if I don't want to)

Ahhhh....SUMMER! I WANT SUMMER!

Anyway, I had a great weekend. I danced, I talked, I even sang to the Lion King with a bunch of other high schoolers. It was great fun. That's all I'm gonna say.

Amaris: William! The best part of prom is to be a hot, single girl where the guys can't get you because they already have dates.
William: You're an incurable tease.

Grease...it's still the word!

Well, the musical is over. Dress rehearsal Thursday didn't go very well, so all the leads (including me) were pretty discouraged. Luckily, the "bad dress rehearsal = great show" was true for us because the performances on both Friday and Saturday were EXCELLENT! The crowds were awesome (they were cheering even before we got onstage!) and we totally fed off of their energy. The only glitch, at least for me, was when my mic didn't work for one of the scenes on Friday night, and even though one of the girls in the cast tried to save it, her mic wasn't on either, so the point of the scene was lost to the audience. Oh well, at least it was the tech crew's problem and not mine.

Now I have to figure out what to do with all the extra time now that I don't have anymore rehearsals... not that I'll have any trouble filling my schedule until the end of the year. First there's ISSMA State for Concert Choir, then the AP test, then the spring choir show, then finals... and finally, FRANCE! IU Honors won't give me as much of a break as a typical summer, but it still won't feel like school. If I thought it would, I wouldn't have applied. Lord knows I need a break.

They will make horrid cheerleaders. Though I'd like to see Evan in a little skirt. -Mandy

Guess Who

doesn't that remind you of that eminem song...guess who's back...back again...shady's back...tell a friend... lol. that song was popular back in i think late middle school. the good old days...*sigh, anywayz, that was totally random. i just thought that i'd break the sarah updating mode that we're in and talk about...dumm dum dum dum...SCHOOL!!! as in, it sux and it's a buncha hooey! so if you're not in the mood, please do not continue to read on.

So right now, i'm in physics, teacher talking about how light passes through glass and other sorts of material and i really don't a give a sh*t. that's pretty much how school has been lately. i never thought that i'd get junioritis but it has set in and there' still a month to go filled with finals and ap testing. spring has never looked prettier and school has never been gloomier. my feelings about education is pretty much in the dumps. no motivation, no desire, no drive, absolutely nada. have never felt so much nothing in my life. although i don't care about school and hmwk and all that other fun stuff, it's the only thing i'm doing. is that fricking sad or what? it's like the asianess inbedded in me that won't let me not do it. damn you asianess. thank god for summer. no school, no projects, happiness:) only one more month and then freedom.

then there's gonna be the whole college situation for senior year. i dunno if i even want to go to college. of course, what i want and what i will do have absolutely no effect on each other. so i'm thinking if i'm going to go to college, i just wanna have a fun. lets just consider the academy as college. it's supposed to be preparing us for it...maybe it won't be as hard (crosses fingers). that'd be awesome! i want to think of college as a very long vacation. although doubtful my dreams will come true on that matter, i can still wish. now it's all a matter of finding what i want to do for the rest of my life. i know i'm not a genius and worldwide achievement isn't in the works for me. so where does that leave me? so many possibilities.


They will make horrid cheerleaders. Though I'd like to see Evan in a little skirt. -Mandy

"19 Somethin'"

That's it. You guys not posting (but still apparently reading this) have left me no choice but to spend my time DOING SURVEYS! Haha... Yeah, I'm bored...Nothing to do in N*, so now I'm taking surveys from my xanga and comparing them to me now. (red = my thoughts now)

From December 9th, 2004:
TEN Random Things About Me
10. I wanna be Japanese or Korean :P (Still quite true...)
09. I love journalism. Newspaper design/editing = my LIFE! (Again, still true...)
08. I can't stand grammar/spelling mistakes. Typos = bad!!!!! (Ha... Wanted to attack the "Grease" advertisements because of the blatant mistakes...Go thru it with a big red marker and go "BAD! BAD TYPOS! LEARN HOW TO SPELL, PEOPLE!")
07. I hate science. (Not taking a class in science senior year! NYAH!) (Eh.... This changed just a bit, considering I have now almost completely reversed my mindset on the medical field. I'm still not taking a science, though.)
06. I am a *gasp* fruit-hater. (This also has changed. Yes, Jane, you can faint now. *waits* Welcome back to consciousness! I've been eating peaches, strawberries and grapes daily. It's not all that bad.)
05. I am single. Completely. (WELL, no changes here, thank goodness. Although I do have a prom date, thanks to Olivia. :P He's about two inches tall, hops around, wears a crown...)
04. I'm very bored, which is why I'm taking the time to do this thing. (Yah... Same situation.)
03. I'm addicted to Ayumi Hamasaki's music. (She's so pretty!! If I had to say that I have an idol, it would be her.) (Hee!!!! I LOVE YOU, AYU!)
02. I prefer Coke to Pepsi. (Well, right now I prefer any type of carbonated beverage, since I have another week without caffeine or chocolate. :( Darn heart problems.)
01. I refuse to wear lipstick. Only lipgloss for me. (Yeah, it's random, but I need to go put on makeup in the bathroom sometime soon for the gig, and so that thought's just been running through my mind.) (I wear lipstick now. It's just rare. And omg, that was a random thought...)

NINE Places I've Visited
09. Gettysburg
08. Texas (lived there)
07. CALI!!! (Fell in love w/ Palo Alto and LA.... AHHHHH!)
06. Chicago
05. Panama City Beach (Spring Break '03! YEAH, BABY!)
04. Indiana (lived there, too - whaddya know?)
03. Some ranch in Ohio for a KC Weekend
02. Illinois
01. Nashville! Wanna go back!

EIGHT things I want to do before I die
08. Get a steady career in journalism (or the medical field)
07. Hopefully live in a place (Cali, some parts of Illinois, NY) where there's a large Asian population (WOO!)
06. Adopt my Asian babies! (ASIAN BABIES! *sigh* I LOVE THEM!!!)
05. Learn Japanese, if not also Korean
04. get married (maybe) (yeah... we filled out cards in ID predicting where/what we'll be in 10 years, and under "family" I left it blank, since I doubt I'll be hitched before I'm 27)
03. Become an author (I need to get moving on my writing...NEED TIME!!)
02. Get elected for a high position in Kiwanis (hehe...I love Kiwanis.)
01. Travel to Asia and Europe (WOO! ENGLAND! IRELAND! WALES! As long as I don't die before June 6th!)

SEVEN Ways to win my heart
07. Where do I start?? Hehe... First off, have a good heart and be able to either work with kids or animals (still as true as can be... it's been used in practice, too. Hehe...)
06. Be intellectual (not exactly in the book-smart sense, but in the worldly sense) (I still believe in this one, too)
05. BE ORIGINAL! None of those crappy pick-up lines.... Goodness. (Yeah. Enough said.)
04. Accept me for who I am. If I am quiet, find a way to compensate for that. Don't try to change me. (I accept myself. Kind of. Okay, not so much, but it would be nice if others could.)
03. Be open enough to share memories with me. That really wins me over. (Nostalgia = happy me.)
02. Please don't think that if I'm not talking about/with you that you aren't a priority. Negatives always stand out in my mind, so if you aren't on my "to-do" list (wow...really worded that one wrong) that's a good thing. (Wow... Why did I not rephrase that?)
01. Go into the relationship wholeheartedly. Don't just say "Aww... She's never had a real relationship. I'll be with her a week or so and then let her off easy." I hate that. NEVER do that, or else you will be on my hit list. (And the only ones on my list now are girls... Women are so cruel to one another, aren't they?? :P) (Yes, we are!)

SIX Things I believe in
06. God
05. My abilities in some areas, like writing and caring for others
04. Everything will end up all right if you don't give up
03. The power of one person
02. The KC motto "Caring - Our Way of Life"
01. Contrary to popular belief, love (Yeah, yeah, I do. I'm just a cynic about it 99% of the time.)

FIVE Things I'm afraid of
05. Deep water. Hate. Deep. Water.
04. Hurting someone else
03. Snakes
02. Being stung by bees
01. Not living up to my potential, having regrets

FOUR of my Favorite Items in my bedroom
04. PICTURES! LOTS OF THEM!
03. My computer...hehe
02. My CD rack (it's all wavy! and of course I love the CD's in it!)
01. My stuffed animals/pillows (Shut up and stop laughing. Yes, you. I like soft things.)

THREE Things I do everyday
03. Computer-related stuff
02. Listen/dance/sing to Jpop (I've been dancing a lot lately. It's a heck of a lot of fun. Can't wait for it next year!)
01. Reflect on myself

TWO Things I am trying not to do right now
02. Fail physics and precal (I'm trying not to get a B in physics right now. Got an A in PreCal, I think. My grades are much higher, though, which is a relief. No more 3.8 GPAs!!! YAY!)
01. Lose my faith in myself

ONE Person I want to see right now
01. Jane. :P Or Ali.I never get to see you guys anymore!!!! :( (I still don't get to see you guys that often, but it's really weird now because I've finally gotten to the point where I don't expect to see you in the halls. I've lost my rays of sunshine, though, and now school is much more...business-like. It's starting to wear me down a bit, especially now that I fall asleep in class all the time. I don't hang out with people during class and I feel like all I'm doing is preparing for college, which, while exciting for me, isn't quite as much fun as it used to be when I had people to really keep me company. In short, it's lonely because outside of Interdisc, I don't have "bookwork" classes with really, really, really good friends -although Catie's almost up there, which makes physics much more enjoyable.)

I can turn any survey into some sentimental, sappy thing, can't I?

They will make horrid cheerleaders. Though I'd like to see Evan in a little skirt. -Mandy

C'mon, peeps. This is my fifth post in a row!! SAVE ME!

I never got to tell you guys about DCON! WOO! (Well, if you read my xanga, you'd know, but that's another story...) It's full of references of people you don't know, so just ignore that part.

Left on Thursday morning around 10. Spent 2 and 1/2 hours in the van with about 5 other close friends. Dropped stuff off in our rooms and worked on stuff for about 5 hours. Had our final dinner together as a board at Olive Garden.... That has to be one of the happiest and saddest pre-convention moments we've had all year. Steph and her "pregnant" after-dinner belly, Preston serving mints, all of us sliding the salt and pepper shakers down the 16-person table, the guys sitting on one side and the girls sitting on another and realizing we were reverting to our middle-school selves... (Yes, I realize that this all means more to me than you and that you really don't understand the references, but this is me recalling what I remember, so deal.)

Headed back to the hotel and watched Erica's video, which was made up of pictures from throughout this year. My favorite was the pic taken at KFC on the way back home from Ohio last May, where someone had snapped me practically throwing the bucket of chicken at Janice, telling her to "take the last piece or face the consequences." I never knew someone had gotten a pic of that, and it just made everyone crack up. Or cry. Or both. Hehe.... *blush*

Friday: Set up construction stuff. Worked registration booth and gave out t-shirts and construction hats. (We had 320 people attend! YES! We met our goal of over 300.) Had a short candidate's meeting. Ran with the others to our rooms to get changed into our overalls and flannel shirts for opening session. Were introduced to all the attendees at 7:30 sharp, all in a dancing "conga" line and carrying large cardboard hammers, wrenches, and screwdrivers.

FUNNY (OR NOT SO FUNNY) STORY: During opening session, I was supposed to go up and read the invocation. When I do go up, I see that someone has written a note for me to ask a moment of silence for the Pope. And so I did. It wasn't until I sat down that Erica whispered across the table to me that the Pope was not exactly declared dead yet. So, all Friday night I was known to the guests as the "white girl who falsely claimed the Pope was dead." *sigh*

But the good news was that my first (out of three) speech for bulletin editor apparently knocked the socks off everyone and my impromptu question went well, too. Then we had the casual get-to-know-everyone dance, which was SOOO much fun!!! OMG!!

Saturday: Went to breakfast. Helped Steph with the bulletin editor workshop. My heart condition from Wednesday night began to worsen, so I got escorted to my room, where I stayed until about 6:45. (For those who don't know, when I get stressed, my heart skips beats quite often and I have trouble breathing. Saturday, however, brought on such a bad spell that I thought I was seriously going to die. Seriously. You can't breathe or think or do anything when your heart skips abeat every 10 seconds.) Around 3:00, Janice came up and volunteered to read my speech in my place at the House of Delegates at 5:00. According to a heck of a lot of people, she did a really good job. (THANK YOU JANICE!!!) Felt a little better, so I got into my poodle skirt and sweater and headed down to join everyone else for the 50's dinner and dance. Everything went SO WELL. I had so much fun, even though I couldn't dance because my heart would go crazy if I did.
The best part of it all was that random strangers would come up to me and make sure I was feeling better, and they were quite sincere. I was sitting down w/ Janice, and several guys, all independent of one another, came up and asked me how I was feeling and either hugged me or rubbed my back. I remember that after they left, I turned to Janice and she was laughing.
Me: "Who was that?"
Janice: "I have no idea."
Me: "I just got hugged by a stranger. A guy, at that."
Janice: "There's nothing wrong with that!"

Sunday: Farewell brunch. Cannot describe in words at all. When you have the entire board, filled with macho 17 and 18-year-old guys and a bunch of girls, all bawling their heads off along with half the audience, it cannot be said in the few minutes I have left to write this before orchestra. Long story short, I did get the position of bulletin editor. I was ecstatic. OMG... EXEC BOARD!!! It was hilarious because Charles Bentley, the KCI president, was in attendance, and he came up to me to congratulate me and went, "You spoke once, got sick, and still managed to win the elections! That's amazing!"

I am going to miss everyone. Gosh, the seniors..... I have no idea what I'm gonna do without them. :( I'd compare it to how Olivia feels with the Habitat for Humanity people, or how close Ash is with her small group, or the friends Jane and Ali have up at the Academy. You learn to live with them, and then you have to learn how to do without again. I guess I'll just take it one day at a time. *sniffles*

BTW, here's the schedule I promised:
April
6 - Wheeler from 4:15-6:15
7 - Holocaust speaker at 7
8 - KELLY CLARKSON!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! So excited!!!
9 - KC Exec Board training from 10-2 or so, Starbucks at 3 for another KC meeting
11 - orch rehearsal after school, lessons
13 - driver's ed starts (lasts until May 4th or something like that)
14 - Jap. II classes start (continue on the 21, 28, May 5, 12, and 19)
22-24 - KC LTG training
23 - ISSMA (how I'm gonna work this out, I don't know)

I'll add to this when I know of more stuff, like the exact date of when I'm going to see "Grease." NOTE: I want another group dinner. The one at Buca's in January was so much fun!!! I wanna get out and shop and talk and be semi-girly and not all professional and tense and working on crap. I want to let loose and laugh and just have fun. It's spring. It's nice outside. I want to experience all that and enjoy it and not spend my time indoors blogging. *cough* Like now.

Off to do PreCal. I want to keep my A!!!! MUST KEEP A! MUST SKIP FINAL!!!!

They will make horrid cheerleaders. Though I'd like to see Evan in a little skirt. -Mandy

EUREKA!!!!

I'm changing my career path. Almost completely.

New Agenda: Go into double major of premed and Asian studies (mainly Japanese) with a minor in journalism. Go to grad school for both majors and move out to Cali (or possibly stay here). Work as either a radiologist or a sonographer (the people who do ultrasounds - nothing invasive!) but also serve as a writer for medical journals and an on-site hospital translator (because of the new laws stating that hospitals must have translators ready in case non-English-speaking patients arrive - this is where I may also take some Korean).

Is this sudden? Yes. Is this going to freak some people (*cough* Jane *cough*) out because it's not what they would think I would do? Most likely. Do my parents support it? My dad doesn't. He heard about it and started laughing, saying that anything related to medicine isn't me. Mom was the one with me at the hospital earlier today, and she got all excited about it. She supports me fully, since she has always thought that I should go into some type of service where I care for others. Whenever I go to see any type of doctor (and believe me, I've been to quite a few), they end up telling me that I should really think about working there. Even my kidney specialist told me not to waste my valuable mind on plain ol' journalism and to either be a doctor or to write medical articles instead, which does appeal to me.

I think that the main reason I never thought about it too much before was because I go to hospitals so much that I just wanted to get away from them; however, whenever I force myself to work at something that I don't like, I tend to become both fonder and quite successful at it. And it's a service to the community! How can you feel bad doing that???

Besides, when I started thinking about it, it is a job that would be a heck of a lot more fulfilling. Before, I was just going to translate a bunch of political and social crap for newspapers, possibly design some, and leave it at that. However, this plan has so much more....purpose. Being able to translate for those in emergencies and to do the whole "Here's your baby! LOOK!" thing (I know it's not all that glorious all the time, but it's still a highlight!), that would just be amazing... And you get paid a heck of a lot, too! :P

If you wanna leave your thoughts, go ahead. I'd like to see some of your reactions. Hehe....


They will make horrid cheerleaders. Though I'd like to see Evan in a little skirt. -Mandy